State of the Jessy

[jessybxx]

Last night, instead of sleeping, I literally slipped into blackness and didn't wake up until 11 AM.

Right now, thigns are not exactly happy, but I cannot blame anyone.
Mum keeps telling me she hates me. Can't blame her, either.

But as I said, things are not lost.
I also noticed that I actually have a number of things I'd have fun doing for a living.
And it's not like I'm dumb or anything.
Well, my highschool graduation marks might be mediocre, but there's stuff beyond that.
I can write. I know tons of stuff about computers, the 'net and media.
Both my German and English are... pretty damn good, I'd say. Translating between them is no problem either.
Oh, and I'm German. Following the cliché, it means that I'm punctual and reliable *lol* But I really am. It runs in the family ^_^

And Kou-chan? The way things look right now, I'll be able to sell him... to my bro :D
That way, I know he's in good hands.
Also, mum's gonna keep the money and once I'm settled (job, room, studying and all that), she'll give it to me. Then, I'll prolly put it away as an extra safety measure. Well, maybe I'll take a small aprt of it to buy something for my... household?
Wow, I love how that sounds. I'm gonna have my own little space. My. Own. Life. And believe me, for that, I'm prepared to work as hard as humanly possible.
And, as harsh as it may sound, getting away from my parents is the best thing to do since the way I live(d) here would just drag me down again and again.
As long as I'm on my own, I feel like I can succeed. Somehow.

Comments

[joekickass.livejournal.com]

I'm amazed that you can keep your chin help up so high through this...I'd have broken the fuck down by now, for sure.

[jessybxx.livejournal.com]

I know. I'm amazed at myself, actually.
But not in a good way.
Anyway, gotta start at zero again and get things the fuck back on track.

[joekickass.livejournal.com]

You can do it, Jessy. I got your back. ;)

[jessybxx.livejournal.com]

Tanks so much *beams*

[dienacht.livejournal.com]

THat is a brilliant plan and I have really beleive you're goping to do well *love*

[jessybxx.livejournal.com]

Thanks :D

[thekelaal.livejournal.com]

Don't pay your mom any attention when she says that.. Everyone screws up, it's not the end of the world. Just stay positive and everything. I'm sure you're gonna get along okay.

[jessybxx.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[rdyfrde.livejournal.com]

Eh, ignore your mom at the moment. She's just being a typical pissed off parent. She'll get over it eventually like most parents do. Just stick to you guns and you'll be fine :)

[jessybxx.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's what I'll do.
Thanks ^^